Last Sunday we had a guest pastor at church. Craig Groeschel is the pastor of Lifechurch.tv and is an amazing preacher. The sermon was called “Choked Up” and was all about worry. This struck me right in my heart and I have been carrying the lessons in the front of my mind since then. He spoke about how we as imperfect humans constantly commit the sin of worry. The Bible tells us not to be anxious but rather to cast all of our problems on the Lord. Some of us - myself included - like to give our problems to the Lord but will take them back if we think He’s not doing it right or fast enough. How delusional to think that I have more control over my life than God?! Craig hit three main points.

1) Do what the Lord tells you to do.
2) Remember what the Lord has done in the past and keep that positive reminder in your mind at all times.
3) Leave everything else up to the Lord.

Ben was let go two weeks ago. When he called and said that he was coming home early and told me why, I sat on the floor and cried. I asked the Lord why this was happening. How were we going to take care of Sophie? I began to frantically think about finding an admin job somewhere just to keep us afloat. I was terrified of having to go back to work because I feel that God has called me to stay at home and take care of my family. Why was He making it so this was the only option? Ben and I talked that night, prayed that night and then continued that for days. Finally, I gave up and gave all of my fears to God. A peace fell over me and has not left. I knew that God did not want me to go and grab the first job I could find. He wants me at home to take care of my family. I began to search out other ways to help. I signed us up for WIC / TANF / Medicaid and I’ll find out those results next week. The Salvation Army gave us almost the entire amount to cover our electric bill. They also gave us formula, baby food and a big box of other food. Ben got a severance check that covered rent and other bills. We ordered an Angel Food box that we’ll pick up on Saturday. Ben has also signed up for unemployment, has 2 freelance jobs and went on two interviews today. Our insurance will last through the end of the month but Sophie is almost guaranteed Medicaid. We are fed, healthy, clothed and we have a roof over our heads. Most importantly, we are together.

Every day I get up and pray that God shows me what to do just for that day. I let Him take care of tomorrow. I hug and kiss my husband and baby girl. I praise Him for what he has done. If I get scared then I pray for the peace that I know will always come. I have never felt so safe. I have never felt so loved. I trust my Father to take care of everything because I know He loves me.

Are you worried about something? Cast it on the Lord and don’t ever take it back.